letters to henry: 4 months old.

Saturday, September 13, 2014


my little henry, 

Your Mom is a slacker/been way too busy/having way too much fun with you/ok a slacker. Here I am 4 months late, writing your 4 months old letter. And that's how it's going to be while I try to catch up with the last 4 months of your life. But better late than never, right? 

4 months was such a fun stage with you. You were just starting to smile all the time. The real kind of smiles, along with the gassy ones. You were also still so tiny. Which is something I miss now that you are growing so fast and out of that newborn baby phase. You were starting to show that irresistible, adorable, and funny little personality you now have full force. You even started giving me kisses which was and is my favorite (never forget that). I feel like this was the time we were really starting to know each other. You loved observing me and watching me everywhere I went, and we started to have some pretty great conversations-- you were a fantastic listener. And I was finally beginning to understand you and what you love and what you don't, and everything in between. You loved watching West Wing with me when mama needed a little break. After that, I was pretty convinced you'd be president one day. Still am.

4 months was a really great month for you and for us. Daddy was graduated and was able to spend lots and lots of time with you. Which we both loved. And we lived with your Grandma and Grandpa which you loved most of all. There is nothing you love more than getting attention from your family. We went to California to visit your Grandma and Grandpa Rhodes where again, you got lots of attention from your aunts and uncle and even you little Hunter cousins, who absolutely adored you. You went to Disneyland for the first time. You went swimming for the first time. You finally found your toes. And you rolled over for the very first time!

So yes, 4 months was a really good month but guess what, it keeps getting better and better.

Love always,
your mama

*other letters to henry found here

letters to henry: 3 months old.

Monday, April 28, 2014


my little henry,

Sometimes on nights like this where I take you up to bed to nurse you asleep, just you and me, and I can't help but think back to 3 months ago when you were born and how all I wanted to do was hold you like I'm holding you now. With you in the NICU and myself, in the hospital for a short time after that, it felt like that "normal" life that I always wanted with you would never come. But look, here we are, you and me together, finally nothing is holding us back and I realize just how blessed and lucky I am to be your mother. And to hold you. And to kiss your sweet little cheeks and nose. And to watch your eyes flutter as you dream your sweet dreams. I feel so incredibly blessed to be able to witness you growing and playing, making sounds and smiling that big gummy smile of yours and to watch your eyes light up each time you see your daddy or me. I love being able to nurse you and share that bond with you, even though it hasn't been easy, I cherish that time I have with you where you really need me. You will never need me more than you do right now, and I'm truly trying to appreciate and soak in each and every moment. Not to mention that look you give me when we lay down and snuggle in bed as I nurse you, is a look that is forever engrained in my mind. Those big blue eyes, which I am so proud to say you got from me. And the way those eyes, look into mine, the way only a mother and baby can share, and then you stop what you are doing and give me your purest smile, which always leads into you trying your hardest to talk and express your happiness to me in the only words and sounds you know, such as your beloved "ah goo" or "ah gaa". And then you pause, just to make sure I heard and understood you, before you start again. I'd like to think I know exactly what your saying. We get each other, you and I. We may have only been together for 3 months but I believe that we've known each other far longer than that. I have no doubt in my mind that you were meant to be mine, just as I was meant to be yours. You are my sweet boy, and always will be.

Love always, your mama.

*letters to henry 2 months & 1 month & 2 weeks 

letters to henry: 2 months old.

Saturday, April 26, 2014


my little henry,

Because of you I have experienced the best two months of my life. As cheesy as it might sound (and prepare yourself, because your mama is and will always be on the cheesy side) you have made my dreams come true. Being a mother was always my dream, and being your mother has been that and so much more. In these past two months you have grown so much. At your doctor's appointment you weighed 9 lbs and 13.5 oz and were 22 1/2 inches long. You are even starting to sport a very dapper double chin-- which means I must be doing something right! My favorite moment has to be in the mornings when we nurse and nap together. In between all that eating and sleeping you are one happy guy-- who wouldn't be! You are smiling all the time, especially when you see me or your dad (which makes us feel really good, so keep it going!) and also for some reason the blinds in our house. In fact your daddy said his favorite thing about you at this age is how you give him the biggest grin, when you first see him after he has been at school and work all day. I also love our singing time which has been very heavily disney influenced. The other day I sang you one of your songs, "Baby Mine", and you loved it. It happens to be a very special song to your mama because that is the song that your great-grandma sang to me every night she was with me, and I plan to keep that tradition going, just hopefully next time I'll be able to get through the whole song without being a baby myself. Henry, after 2 months I can finally say we are starting to find our groove, during the day and during the night. You still aren't the best sleeper (okay, your actually still not great) but we have found things that have worked for us that have made things much much better. For example having your daddy-- who is the master swaddler-- swaddle you right before bed each night is a must as well as having you sleep next to me which has made our night time feeding much more enjoyable for all parties, all while being serenaded by classical music which you love. Really I have discovered that the key to motherhood (or parenthood) is to do what works for you and your child. Because it will be different for everyone, and I'm so glad we've found what works for us. Life is so incredibly good with you here. And I know I've said it before, but I'll say it forever, I love being your mother.

Love always, your mama

valentines day.

Friday, February 28, 2014


we hope you all had a lovely and happy valentines day. 

We loved our day of love in our house. I loved having two valentines this year and getting my favorite german pancake breakfast in bed with flowers, Henry loved getting his very first valentine + v-day present (thanks grandma! -- how did you know we loved stripes!), and Tanner and I celebrated our first Valentines Day with a baby in style: 
a lá P.F Changs take-out and redbox. 

It was perfect. Our kind of perfect. I'm kinda really in love with my life at this moment, I just want to capture it in a bottle so that I can relive it as many times as I want. Do you know that feeling? I hope so, cause boy is it a good one. 

letters to henry: 1 month old.

Thursday, February 27, 2014


my little henry,

You are one month old! You are growing so much. You weighed in at 8 lb. 1 oz at your one month check up and are healthy as ever (way to go dude!). Your squishy little newborn face is almost gone which makes this mama sad, but at the same time look at what a beautiful baby boy you are becoming. Your dad and I hope you don't get too full of your baby self because all we can do is say what a beautiful baby you are about a million times a day. So in case you need to hear it again, Henry, you are one beautiful baby. You are becoming such an active little fellow. You love to kick your legs like no ones business and wiggle whenever you can. You never stay still, so it's quite a feat when we get photos of you without a blurred leg here or a blurred arm there. Henry, you amaze us every day. You are starting to smile! Yes, it's very random and inconsistent but every day you are smiling more and we can't get enough of it. You have some cute quirks too, like your "fake" cry which just attests that you are one dramatic little guy who is too smart for your own good. But our favorite is whenever you sneeze, the little sigh that accompanies it right after. There is no cuter sound, and whenever we hear a sneeze come from your direction, the whole house goes silent in anticipation of the most adorable noise ever heard. We hope you never grow out of that one. In fact, just stay this little forever ok? 

Henry, you are one loved little boy. Just in case you didn't know already.

Love always, your mama

letters to henry: 2 weeks old.


my little henry,

Since your first week of life was spent in the hospital, your second week was heaven for us. It finally felt just like it should be. You were finally home! The day after we brought you home, when I had to leave you to stay at the hospital to get healthy myself, it broke my heart. But your Dad and Grandma took such good care of you. When I got home I felt like everyone knew more about you than I did, but you were so patient with me and before we knew it we found our groove. And oh how I loved finally being able to be your Mom. I loved seeing you hold onto your ears and snuggle in bed next to us. I loved the fact that you would immediately stop crying when ever I started singing, and that when I sang "my favorite things" your dreaded hiccups would magically disappear. I already love looking back to your first bath at home, and how frantic your dad and I were. 

You were just so fragile and teeny. And it already breaks my heart that you've grown so much already. But I also love seeing you grow into your own little personality which was already so apparent from our first moments with you. You are one stubborn little guy (which you get from both of your parents) and you are just so sweet and love to be held as close as can be. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Love always, your mama 

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